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Theory #1

When you think that you understand someone you feel better about yourself because if this person means a lot to you then you feel that something good is going to happen but if it turns out that you were wrong then you start to re-think everything, maybe you don't understand that person and maybe you never did in the first place and you were just fooling yourself.

A game that person played with you but you know that you can't blame that person because they didn't do anything, it all came down to you and your presumptions. But these things might be small to everyone else but to you it means everything because your presumptions are what made you feel a certain way about that person and to find out that in fact you know nothing about this person hurts. It's not heartbreakingly hurtful but it still hurts a lot, you know you don't love this person but you know that this person could be the one that you fall in love with.

But can you ever tell this person how you feel? No, because you don't want them to change, it would hurt more to you if they knew and changed the way they act around you, you wouldn't want it to change your life but it will. You know you're already a guarded person to begin with but if anything happens then you close up more than you already do and you don't want that.

So you make a new resolution to yourself, "don't let anything affect you because when it does you have no way to counteract it", that is going to be your new resolution. You can't afford to do this again to yourself. So maybe it's best if you don't spend so much time talking to the person, thinking about this person because all it is doing is distracting you from what you need to be doing.

But remember never to blame this person because they didn't do anything, it's all your own fault. But then you think you can't really blame yourself either you just have to think it's something that happened and all you have to do is get on with your life and don't dwell on this one thing because all it does is hurt you.

Interesting Theory?

30 Things Girls Should Know About Guys:

1. We're not as perverted as you think we all are. we just like sex

2. No matter what YOU say, your ex-boyfriend IS a LOSER.

3. We like you to give us hugs and kisses sometimes too.

4. Don't argue with us when we call you beautiful.

5. Don't treat us like crap, what goes around comes around.

6. We know you're pretty, that's one of the reason's we're going out with you.

7. Don't go into detail about your period. It scares us.

8. If you have cramps and we ask you what's wrong, just tell us it's that time of the month and nothing more.

9. If you really liked us for us, you would let us think that our mustache, beard, or sideburns looked cool.

10. We never shave our legs. So get over it.

11. NEVER ask us if you can put makeup on us. It's just wrong............

12. Don't make bets about us, because one of your friends will tell us, if you don't.

13. When we tell you that you're not fat, believe us.

14. We absolutely do not care about the Backstreet Boys, *NSYNC, 98 Degrees, or what any other guy looks like for that matter.

15. We may not be able to pee accurately all of the time, but at least we can stand up and go pee.

16. Just cause you think you're always right, doesn't mean that you don't have to apologize when you do something "wrong."

17. You expect us to say and do sweet things for you, but it would be nice if you did the same every once in a while. We like to know that you love us.

18. We can't always be spontaneous, so try to help us make the plans sometimes.

19. Don't ask us to beat up another guy for you, cause you might get what you wish for.

20. Never kick us in the nuts "just to see what we would say". That's just mean.

21. Never pretend like you are going to break up with us and laugh when we believe you.

22. Pamela Anderson's boobs aren't fake anymore, but we like yours better anyway.

23. Size doesn't matter, except to idiots who don't want a relationship.

24. PMS is not an excuse.

25. If you want us to put the seat down when we're done, you should put it up when you're done.

26............ Don't tell us how cute your ex-boyfriend was. That doesn't turn us on.

27. And always remember: The way to a guys heart is through his stomach..... and maybe....oh nevermind.

28. NEVER ask us to kiss other guys. You might be that comfy with your friends, but to us it's just wrong.

29. We always notice how funny it is after your rip out our heart stick it down our throat and still want to be friends.

30. And last but not least: We know you're not always right, but we'll pretend like you are anyway.



It's too funny and oh so true

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Ok, I'm just sick of this now. Can anyone tell me what is so wrong with listening or being interested in something that is not of the same culture as yourself. I really don't know if this applies to anyone else but it certainly applies to me. I'm a African-American teenage girl and I am very interested in Asian things(music, t.v., language,people), basically everything. I really don't see what the problem with this is but everyone else always seems to have something to say, now there is only so many times people can say things and i can ignore them before it starts to bother me. People have always made comments about me, supposedly because i'm not "Black" enough, now can someone please tell me what exactly "black" is so i can get myself that way<---sarcasm. Now the whole thing with Asian things, I listen to alot of Korean and Japanese music and that's what's playing in my CD player at the moment, people will come up to me and go, what are you listening to, automatically I tell them music, they listen then the next thing I get is a look and the same question over and over again do you understand, no i don't understand but I am trying to learn, that's what I tell them, then I get another look and it just pisses me off. Seriously are people so based in stereotypes that they believe the only music that black people listen to is rap and R&b. i really hate when people do that it just feels like a blow to my pride every time. I try to not let it bother me, but ther's only so many times. I'm just so upset over this, i mean this is the 21st century people really need to get out of their stereotyped ways.

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Hey, I'm at school right now, it's pretty boring but I have to be here. I have a big test tomorrow and I haven't even studied. well I'll talk to you guys later, gotta go now. byebye, Plus i am now totally in love with My Name Is Kim Sam Soon, everyone should go and download this now. See you guys in a while.

Ok, now this is so weird. since I got my job I've been really busy and everything and plus now that school's started I practically have no time for a social life(not that I had one before..) but now I have no time to do anything. So I've been having these weird boy problems since like last year and I thought maybe finally it was going to work out this year, but now I think that's it's more screwed up than it was before because like we never really sat down and had a really serious convo about what was going on with us and now we don't even talk anymore. Like today he wanted to talk to me but I had already promised my other friend that me and he would go out for lunch and it's not like I could cancel, beause I had to help my friend with something, so cancelling would've been very bad, so I told him I had to go somewhere and he just like got this look on his face like he'd just given up on everything, and then he was like to me just forget it. Now, I totally understand how he can give up because this has been going on for a very long time but seriously give me a chance to explain, maybe we could've talked another time but just shutting down like that just because I'm not gonna drop everything with my friends to talk to you right away..
I just don't get it, but who knows if he's finally giving up then I should just let him because maybe it's best for him, I mean I don't consider myself a real great relationship person because I know I'm not so it's not like I can be angry at him for wanting to maybe find a girl who can be everything he needs because I don't think that I am. It just really makes me sad because this is like my first ever officially serious relationship and I can't seem to get it to work so maybe it's best we both give up on it and like for me to strat concentrating more on my school work and my goals I wanna accomplish before I graduate.
Ok on a happier note I've discovered the world of Ulzzangs, and I know that it's always a sore subject for a lot of people but I think that they are great in what they do which is just basically looking cute, pretty or hot, so I guess it's all good for them. Anyways my favorites are:

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Hey everyone, well this is just a really random post because I just felt like posting, I finally did something new to my hair today, cause befor I looked like a crazy person with crazy hair at my workplace. But anyways I got my hair braided which is totally cool cause now I don't have to worry about it when school starts. On another (freakyier) <--is that a word, anyways school starts next week...exactly a week from today is when I start grade 12, which is my last year. I'm very happy about that. I don't think that I've lost any weight which I'm bummed out about but I'm still trying. I've been looking at myself in the mirror and I'm really starting to hate alot of things about myself, so for now I think I'm going to stop looking in the mirror. My work got extra stressful when I had to deal with a messed up customer who kept asking if she looked good in a pair of jeans whoch didn't fit her well at all and I had to keep lying to her cause she kept bugging me to try to get jeans so they fit her right but either way it was never going to fit her right. Anyways that's about it so byebye for now.

Hey everyone, I finally got back from NY. The trip was okay, it wasn't the best because I had tons of things that I wanted to do when I got there but everything got screwed up so only half of the things that I needed to get done got done. I went to Kinokuniya Bookstore to look for some Jpop mags but I couldn't find any with any JE boys of the cover so instead I got Arena37*c and Sweets which had Ayumi on the cover. I'm happy I got those because in the Arena they had a little article on DBSG and LEAD, plus articles on Miyavi and T.M Revolution(2 artist's I absolutely love). When I was coming back on the bus on my way to Toronto we had to pass through Canal St. which is basically just Chinatown....and I was sitting in the bus just so angry that I didn't get to go there, and if I went I would have probably found what I was looking for, but anyway it was a fun trip. On another happier note I finally got a job. I now work at a clothing store so I'm happy because the environment is nice and the people are great to get along with and I'm doing okay so far, today I even helped people with their shopping needs. I really need to go back to school shopping, but I went into a Staples store today and everything is so expensive in that store, that's why I wanted to go to Pacific Mall cause everything would've been cheaper but still in good quality and I could've gotten other stuff from that mall too. The only problem with Pacific Mall is that it is very far away from where I live and I don't own a car so I have to take a bus and spending more than an hour on a bus doesn't sound fun at all, but I still plan to go sometime this year. I've decided that I'm going to try to change my body this year. I've always been a person who doesn't like how they look so I decided that I'm going to do something about it. I want to lose 10 pounds and I'm trying everything in the world to make my face more clear, then since I now have a job and I'll be getting some money soon I plan to join a gym so I can work out more, not to build muscle but just to tone everything. I've gotten a whole new outlook on my life this summer so I'm going to try to fix everything that bothers me about myself. Anyways that's about it for me in my life, I'll be posting up pics of myself so you guys can see me as I go through my physical changes and since I plan to do way better in school now I'll also be posting up some test's and quizzes so you guys can see my improvements. Byebye for now

Heyhey, my lj peeps I'll be going to America tomorrow for family vacation, so no more posting until I come back, I'll miss everyone, byebye for now

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Ominious topic title but it's for a good reason, I have a job interview tomorrow and I'm hoping like crazy that I get this job. I need the money seriously bad, I have so many things that I want and the money that I could get if I got this job would be a life-saver right now. So I'm gonna cross my fingers and hope that everything works out ok.

My comp is shit so it'll take a while before I can update my fic, I'm hoping by Friday I'll be able to fix everything

Ok, wow I'm such a bad writer but I'll update it by Sunday at the latest...it's just really weird, I mean I had a whole plan in my mind going and then all of a sudden it's gone, but it's back on tracj now so I'll be getting back to it, I'm writing it right now

ok, as of right now I'm feeling very happy. i've just posted my first ever fanfic story and it seems that people like it, so I'm already to start chapter 2 and keep it going until the end...I just had to ge this out of me

Now this is just a rant... but I was watching Big Brother a couple of minutes ago and I just have to comment on it. Now I'm not a big reality-tv person but I like Big Brother just cause it's funny sometimes but god this episode just pisses me off...it's just a typical control-freak who wants to control everything so he gets everyone to go with him brainwashiing them<-- now I use that term very lightly because it's not exactly brainwashing it's more of intimidation.. and since it seems that everyonme is sheep they are bound to follow, so they just go along with this one person's plan like none of them have even a half-brain, and they just isolate the one person because of someonelse's fears. Now this happens in tvland and in real-life and that just pisses me off more, I mean can't people just sit and talk aboout what's bothering them does it have to be some sort of big competition, that just progresses into nothing that is even helpful in any sort of way.